have a moment where I actually feel something for someone. When I know I am the closest I’ll ever be to being okay and whole. I see that you really never can fix a heart. Because I’ve been chasing your ghost around my head for so long and scrambling to fill the holes you left. I’m over you. I’m just not over these wounds. Will I ever be able to love someone the way I loved you?
I just found this old post from about 3 months ago. I can’t believe how fast and how hard things can change. I was hopeless. I was in such an awful place and I believed that I would never find anyone to share deep connection with ever again. But I did. I found him and he is perfect and makes me so happy I could die and it would be spectacular because he would be there next to me holding my hand. I’m not sure but I really feel like I have never felt this deeply for anyone else, ever. When we are together, I am complete. Those holes that were there before are not just forgotten or filled by your presence, they are nonexistent. Maybe they weren’t holes in the first place…I just hadn’t found the right person for me yet. I believe that you are that person. I don’t care if it’s soon. Or sudden. Or crazy. Or psycho. I love you and I want you to know that I have never experienced a relationship as wonderful as this in my entire life. You show me a different side of myself. A side that I never knew I was capable of accessing. I am carefree with you. For the first time, able to completely LET GO and just BE with you. I love just BEING. Living in the moment and enjoying every second of it. What I love most of all though is being able to know you and continuously learn new things about you. Everything you do makes me love you even more. You are what I want and for the first time in a long time, I mean that. I want to keep getting to know every part of you and loving you endlessly. I love you, Adam. Probably more than you know.
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- Anonymous (via sincerelyhappines)
"dark lipstick makes you look intimidating"
good. stay the hell away from me.